my heart is heavy...
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believe

oh, gentle reader...sometimes you gotta believe!

Believe
this...this is my new favorite hat! i love this hat! i wear this hat almost every single day.

for a myriad of reasons...

i like the way it fits.

i like the color.

i love the word across the front!

b e l i e v e

that is pure awesomeness.

there was a time in my life in which you would never see a hat on my head.

never!

ever!

now, i have a growing collection ;)

so the other day, i stepped into kirowold and a patient noticed my hat.

i've known him since the beginning of kiroworld.

he asked me what it is that i believe.

my answer:

i believe in everything! i believe in nothing! it depends upon the weather. it depends upon my mood.

and then we had a relationship talk.

because that's what we do at kiroworld.

we cultivate relationships!

we talked about his kids. we talked about young lady. we talked about the snow storm we had a few weeks ago [ not the most recent sunday debacle but the thursday debacle ]. it was great to catch up with him as i am not in the office that frequently.

afterwards, on my drive back to kirohouse, i reflected upon my quip:

i believe in everything! i believe in nothing! it depends upon the weather. it depends upon my mood.

and realized that this more true than not.

there are days that are so hard, that it's impossible to believe in anything. there are days that i like to call it quits. there are days that i can't wait until it's time to put my jammies on and disappear into my dreams. there are days that i wonder if i will be able to pull myself out of my stupor. there are days that i find it nearly impossible to put one foot in front of the other and continue this journey called life.

and then there are days that it's so easy to believe that everything is possible! there are days in which i am jumping out of bed and greeting the day with enthusiasm. there are days that i can't wait to share with my family and friends. there are days that bring me so much joy that i feel my heart is over flowing with love. there are days that are bursting at the seems with gratitude and abundance!

and then, on that drive back to kirohouse, i realized that those days far outweigh the impossible ones.

at first, i kicked myself for having those impossible thoughts. then i realized...i am authentically living my life as is, instead of as if!

every single day cannot be great! there are ebbs and flows to everything.

there are great days.

there are good days.

there are not so good days.

and then there are down right dreadful days.

and you know what? i truly believe that we have to experience the not so good and dreadful days to remind us once in awhile to appreciate the awesome days! to remind us of humility. to remind us that there are powers at work that we cannot control.

i am so happy to report that this week has been full of awesomeness!

i am grateful for every moment of awesomeness that i am granted.

and you know what else, gentle reader?

i believe!

i am grateful:

  • for the ability to understand a rain must fall
  • for the ability to feel gratitude
  • for the ability to express gratitude
  • for the ability to appreciate goodness
  • for the ability to accept what i cannot change [ ok, that one i am definitely working on ]

just breathing isn't living!

sincerely,

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